You were, are, and always will be my biggest trigger.
Tattoo is donee!!

I am in LOVE with it ahhh!! Posting pics as soon as the swelling goes down a little :)

That awkward moment when your friend’s boyfriend always seems to be flirting with you and you aren’t sure what to do about it..
…but then again that just seems to be his personality and I don’t think I’m the only one. But also it feels wrong, even though I don’t reciprocate. But I’ve also talked to her and made sure she knows nothing would EVER happen EVER because fuck that shit, who would I be if I turned around and did exactly to a friend what a former friend of mine did to me?

MEHHHH *awkward turtle*

I am SO sorry I’ve been a little M.I.A this week guys!

I’ve been on spring break all week… but no I didn’t go away. I got scheduled to work literally every. Single. Day. So I haven’t had much time to be online. 

My classes start again monday though so I promise things will go back to normal then!!

Love you alll :) Stay beautiful!

The only way I can fall asleep at night is if I keep my eyes closed and pretend he’s next to me.
Injured.

I am so incredibly pissed that this.

Apparently some time during the beginning of this week I did something wrong while running on the treadmill at the gym.. then continued to run every day this week. My right knee randomly hurt when I woke up one day but I’ve been powering through it anyways.

So since I was favoring my knee walking places (I live in a city where you walk EVERYWHERE) I apparently put too much strain on my left leg and strained my left ankle. So I pulled out an old ankle brace that I had and am currently wearing it, have been the past couple days.

Hurt left ankle, hurt right knee. How am I supposed to decide which leg to limp on?

Today my ankle is better because of the brace, but my knee is SO painful. I can barely even walk, I’m so upset. Walking kills and going down stairs is an absolute joke. I’m limping like a fool.

I called my dad because he’s a runner and he said I may have just started running too far too soon (I’ve never been much of a runner, I used to always stick to the elliptical for cardio). Apparently he did something similar when he first started running back in the day. He’s no doctor by any means but he told me I have an inflammed/strained tendom in my knee and that the only way I can make it get better is to rest.

As if resting is fucking possible. I have a fifteen minute walk each way to class every day. I work retail all weekend and am constantly walking around and going up and down stairs because the A&F I work at has 3 stories… I DON’T HAVE TIME TO REST. Also wearing 5 inch heels all night on that date yesterday probably didn’t help.

I’m mostly pissed because this means I can’t do cardio for who knows how long. Yeah I cans till do weight, but it’s fairly well known that you aren’t going to burn much fat or stay in very good shape if you aren’t doing cardio..

Setbacks, ugh!! @*&$^%!*@$#

So I have a date tonight, and I have no idea what I’m doing.

I’m meeting a guy I don’t know from a damn hole in a wall for “drinks” at a bar in my city.

I never do this, and I have to idea how to even begin. I’ve never been on a real date like this.. I’m in college for god’s sake. College kids hang out and meet each other at parties through mutual friends, THEN decide to maybe hang out one on one after they know each other a little better. College kids don’t meet someone for basically the first time for drinks and hope it goes well. That’s like.. trying to generate a relationship out of absolutely thin air. AHH.

But this guy is a couple years older and therefore out of college.. so maybe he’s used to it?

I don’t know what to wear, I don’t know what to expect, I don’t know how to act… I am going to be a mess.

HELP. I’M NOT USED TO BEING TREATED WITH RESPECT AND TAKEN ON A REAL DATE LIKE THIS. WHAT DO I DO AHH.

Despite how happy some people claim to be with being single, today was a special kind of hell, and I’m glad it’s over.
Sitting at the desk at my work study job fantasizing that my ex is going to walk in with flowers and apologize for everything and tell me he’s still as in love with me as I am with him..

…as IF. Thinking this way is so destructive.